The Human Avatar: What Religion doesnt want you to know

What if I told you that what you believe yourself to be is just an avatar. That your body which also includes your mind is a vehicle. Your mind being the engine and your body being the car… So who is driving?

There are so many components to the human experience. It takes a great deal of enlightenment to realize that… It is just that! An experience… A brief moment in time.

However, where there is one life there are many… and I’m not talking about different lives lived by different people. I mean different lives that you get to live.

Now why would this need to be a secret… A taboo thought… Here’s the reason…

There is a universal law of order. Of how things should flow and that includes knowledge and understanding.

Have you ever been in a deep conversation with someone and just simply cannot understand why they cannot get the “point” that you are trying to make?

-Some people are just stubborn and can understand but choose to disagree… I am not talking about those people, I am talking about those who seek to understand but are stunted in their ability to reach that level of understanding.

Everyone’s level of understanding and comprehension is different. This is based on many things, to include… Your soul’s age… Their soul’s age… Their current level of understanding.

Imagine putting top secret information in the hands of a toddler… Versus someone who has been trained and experienced in top secret information. The toddler will not understand the information at the same level.

Makes sense?

So then there is religion. Which let me say by the way that I am a believer in God. I have a GREAT relationship with God/ Our source and he has blessed me beyond words. Yet as I have grown in knowledge, I have also grown to understand God’s methods… The strategic planner that he is.

No matter the religion that you may have grown up believing in… Please understand that it is simply a blueprint… A starting point… Everyone starts off taking Biology, then Chemistry and then Physics and advancing further out from those points.

Well, some people get stuck in biology. Some people advance beyond those and comprehend at a different level. Even your level of understanding is strategically planned by God… As if a veil being removed at each stage of soul advancement.

The Avatar

Your body is your avatar…. Your soul is the driver!

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mahdis mousavi

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Blown away yet? Or still with me?

It really is a blessing that our souls return to our bodies time and time again to operate us, as we navigate through life.

Many natives and even those who practice Islam believe that the soul leaves the body each night and returns to heaven. Before we wake, our soul then returns to us.

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Ahmad Odeh

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I am not saying that there isn’t a God, because I know for a fact that there is. What I am saying is that he is a teacher. A master teacher and planner and he knows us better than we know ourselves!

If everyone knew that our soul doesn’t die… Could you imagine how many people, who felt that they hated their lives may decide to just end it all… “Well maybe next time God will place me in a better type of life”, they may think…

Here’s the thing… If you’ve been with me so far and have not stopped reading… Then know this…

As I mentioned before about how strategic God is… He plans our purpose and lessons. As I have told many who I have talked to about this topic, who have been suicidal in the past… You will have to learn these lessons eventually! So why not now.

If you take yourself out of this life and these experiences that you are MEANT to learn… You are just taking yourself out of the game that you have already advanced into (however many years and lessons in that you are).

When you quit the game… You get to start from level one…With the same start and same type of situations strategically outlined for you.

One of my family members walked into the woods one evening, with the goal to end her life. A person who is one of the most beautiful spirits I have ever had the pleasure of meeting and knowing. Strong, brave and beautiful, but not immune to the harsh lessons that life dishes out at times!

Rifle in hand while walking into the woods… Out from the woods came a porcupine. Having never seen a porcupine before in real life, she stopped in admiration. Sadness still overpowering her, the porcupine looked up at her as it stopped in it’s tracks.

She reflected as she shared this story with me about how a calmness came over her. A calmness that was reassuring and hard to describe.

You see… God works in mysterious ways. God is magic, love and compassion.

God needs all of us in this life learning lessons… Using our soul to guide this avatar. As spirit guides us on our path… Learning, growing and teaching others.

After that experience she returned to her home. She took to Google and learning that the porcupine’s spiritual meaning was a symbolic representation of the current point she was in at that time.

“The porcupine spirit animal is a very interesting animal because of the needle-like barbs that cover its entire body.

The porcupine symbolism teaches you to face your weaknesses and vulnerabilities head-on, and to do what you must to protect yourself from anything or anyone that wishes you harm.

The porcupine may look fierce and intimidating, but it has a very curious and gentle nature.

It finds joy in the little things, and it will inspire you to be happy and content in living life at a much slower but steadier pace.” – (

There is great beauty in struggle, once you have overcome it… Yet, you have to give yourself a chance to do just that… Overcome.

Living, learning, growing, supporting, loving and once your avatar has timed out… You will be faced with answering for your experiences. Faced with the reality of if you lived out your true purpose. Using your avatar as the vehicle but using your soul for the mission.

In the Trenches: Twin Flames Exposed

Are you Twinning?

Have you found your souls true half… True North, that sometimes feels like true South. What stage are you in? Are you wondering the same?

In this blog you will find the true nature of the twin flame journey… Exposed.

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Are You Twinning?

Have you found your twin flame?

As a desperate attempt to make sense of the twin flame phenomenon, I frantically went to google and typed in the following “Psychic connection to someone” and “The ability to read someone’s mind”. Feeling completely insane as I typed this… I was pleasantly surprised to find the many resources available to me which outlined the same experiences that others were having, just like me!

My twin was not receptive to the concept at the time, despite the fact that he recognized the strange yet beautiful connection between us. His ego would win the fight against his soul for many years to come.

Sometimes the intensity of the connection made flames blare and emotions spiral!

Yet there were also times when our flame burned dim… To the point, I was unsure as to if we would survive the connection and remain together.

Not realizing at the time, that it was impossible to separate… You can not separate from your own soul.

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I will tell you that we did eventually reach an equilibrium, where he recognized and acknowledged the connection and even began to call me his twin… Us referring to one another as “twin” became as common as sipping water. At first fearing that I would choke if I even thought to utter that foreign term to my twin. I soon felt comfortable and so did he.

What you have learned thus far and what has lead you to this page… Is the fact that you too feel that you are wrapped up in a twin flame vortex. You may be feeling helpless, hopeless and confused. What is this term that I now so loosely throw around? Is it devil worship? Is it of God? Does God mention twin flames?

These are all questions that I too once asked… I share in my book that is published as a paperback, Ebook and audio book the journey that my twin and I faced. The challenges, the pushing, the pulling, the depression. I felt compelled to share how desperate we were to both separate and make sense of this, while also being drawn back together time and time again.

Do you love your twin more than words can express?… If this is you, let me tell you something… There are no words that can express the connection. There are many twin flame sites which discuss various stages. Ranging from 3 to as many as over two dozen!

From my own personal journey I can tell you some common themes that you will find in any twin flame journey. Simply put… Here goes!

  • The falling for one another
  • The repelling one another
  • The chaser, the runner and then!
  • The universe pushing you back together time and time again
  • Acceptance
  • Surrender
  • Ascension

The pushing and pulling is what many sites term as “the dance”. An exert from my book displays this magnetic push and pull effect in this way:

“There were moments where I genuinely began to not care if we ever spoke again… I could have never imagined being to this point with him, for the first several years after we met. Yet…

When I got to this point… It was like he always knew… How to draw me back in… How to make me fall again… Forgiving, forgetting and then learning… That neither of us had a choice.

It was a dance… We held each other close, dancing around in circles.

Happily, and without care, he would spin me around… casting me out yet holding on, before pulling me back in closer to him. Then casting me out again… Only keeping us in touch by the tip of one hand, joined with the tip of mine… Melancholy coupled with a sense of gratitude.

At least we were still dancing… We had not stopped…” (Urban Garden: A Twin Flame Story) which can be found on Amazon/ Kindle.

We had not stopped… as you have not stopped… and cannot stop.

You see… This relationship is something out of your control and beyond any level of comprehension that we could imagine with our minds. We simply do not have the capacity to understand fully the connection nor the purpose.

Here’s what you can rest assured on… It was meant to happen.

No matter where you are in your twin flame journey, rest assured that it is not over… as it could never be over. You and your twin are one in the same. Two sides to the same beautiful coin.

If your twin has not yet accepted this. That too, is ok. Trust the process and most importantly! Never try to force the connection.

There was a time when I did not listen to that tidbit of advice. To me I felt that my twin needed to know that our connection was something special and that he would never find this connection with anyone else. Feeling as if I needed verification from him that he felt the same… I did not.

I eventually learned that focusing on myself and my own well being was what I needed most. I know you may hate when people say that, but please believe me it is true.

When I stopped focusing on my twin and started focusing on what made me happy… He always gravitated back to me naturally.

It was as if the effect of me growing, learning and being happy reflected back on him and drew him back to me.

As twins, please recognize that this connection is rare… It is sacred and it is not by chance. If you are reading this and feel you are in a dance with your twin. Keep dancing.

When you are cast out and held on barely by the tip of your twins fingertip, just know that you will again be pulled back in. That you will continue to dance and when the dance is over. You will return to the arms of the one who loves you… The arms of the one who is love, as you are love and all encompassing.

Continue to be that light that shines bright. The light that won’t dim no matter how dark things can feel at times. I promise you that better days are coming.

As you journey towards ascension you may feel isolated and alone. You may be the only one in your family who has awoken… Just know that you are not alone. That many are also waking, but do not speak of their own experiences.

Through this site you have found a safe place and outline. You can share your experiences and receive support. I am here to answer any questions about the twin flame journey, the soul mate journey and to help with identifying the differences between the two.

A true story about how twin flames fought the odds and managed to come out on top.

Found on Amazon, Kindle and Audible

Status and Suitors

Why men are not just looking for a pretty girl…

They say that beauty is in the eye of the beholder. This holds some, but little truth. The reality is that most people will agree on who they physically find appealing, based on looks alone. However the part that differs is the way in which others connect with you.

Let’s explore this further: As there are many different types of connections. Just as there are many types of ways that a person can resonate with you.

There is mental connection, physical connection and then there are spiritual connections.

Mental connection: Is when a person matches your level of intelligence. Allowing for the thoughts, ideas and conversation to flow easily amongst the two of you.

Physical connection: Is when a person desires the other and finds that their physical needs are met by that person. This does not just mean sex! This is also when a person provides a sense of comfort, in the form of a reliable and stable home environment. (Sex, Food, Shelter)

Spiritual connection: This is when a person resonates with you on a deeper level. You have to be in tune with yourself and others in order to pick up on this. Let’s explore this further because this is the toughest one to identify and understand.

Not everyone that you meet will not resonate with you. There may be some people who you find kind, attractive, hard working, funny, etc. You may like these attributes that they hold but outside of those qualities, they don’t bring you a sense of feeling as if your home.

There are people… and then there are people who are a part of your tribe. Those are spiritual connections. (For more information about this please join my blog as I will be posting weekly about this topic and various others)

Status and Suitors: It is that physical connection that resonates with most people. The ability to feel that they have found a safe, stable and reliable partner. This partner does not have to be beautiful or handsome. This partner does not have to match your mentality, they simply have to be able to provide a means of survival.

When I published my first book and started my business in ghost writing, I was not surprised at the many thousands of men who found my page and attempted to “shoot their shot”. It was over a thousand friend requests a day and I recall spending hours deleting the requests from men who had not just seen a photo of a pretty girl but clicked on my page and learned about me having several degrees and a business that I was running.

I only knew this because many of them would message pretending to want to write a book. Expressing that they needed me as their ghost writer. I would began asking questions about their projects, only to find that they were not interested in writing or becoming an author of a book at all.

Most of the messages, after a few minutes into conversation, would say something like “I would like to meet you in person to discuss this further”… Is that right, good sir? I thought, before declining the offer and reinforcing that I was only online to entertain my business.

There were also the more persistent ones. A few who would pay me $100 for an hour of information which they wanted in their book. I would type up the information and send it back to them. They would harp about how talented my writing was and how much they liked it… before asking me on a date.

Tisk Tisk… Some people learn the hard way. Again reiterating my lack of desire to be courted and wanting to simply provide a service. Well, needless to say! Those men did not return to attempt to write a book and I’m guessing were not serious about wanting to write in the first place.

I was baffled at how far some men would go to catch a woman that they felt had stator. A woman that they prized as valuable. I can tell you that there was a time that I was just a pretty face on social media. I did not list my degree’s. I did not list my business nor my accomplishments.

My friend requests did not exceed the thousands daily, and the men who were in my inbox were few and they usually were blunt jerks that boasted penis pics and bad vocabulary.

The finer pedigree of men came out when my accomplishments were displayed. The fact of stability and what I could bring to the table became the forefront and physical beauty became like an accessory. It was nice to have, but not necessary.

Men who own businesses, who have brands, who have bands and racks on racks on racks (sorry that is my more ratchet side). There were men who own properties and who are looking for a partner who can match their stamina and drive!

I realized that this!! This stability and means of support… means of survival trumped physical beauty. This goes for men and women. It is survival mode.

The difference between Beta fish and sharks (go getter type of men) that you attract, could largely be due to the type of woman that they assume you to be.

If they feel that being with you will be like a weight being lifted, they are most likely to stay. If they feel like weight is being added to their load… They are most likely to flee.

Beauty holds a man eyes, but not his attention!

There has to be more… Sometimes… Much more. Depending on the man.

Be his peace, be his support and his friend. Then as a bonus, sprinkle some beauty on top!

My First Blog Post

There are so many thoughts whirling around in this pretty little mind of mine!

I woke up in a garden, located amongst the clouds… As time went on, like crops springing from the ground; children began to form all throughout the garden.

Without a care we continued to lay there in love… Until the whole garden was full of children…

(Urban Garden: A Twin Flame Story)-

Aisha J. Washington

This is the first post on my new blog. I’m just getting this new blog going, so stay tuned for more. Subscribe below to get notified when I post new updates.

Who is the author of The Beautiful Life

The Author of Urban Garden: A Twin Flame Story, A mother, a writer, editor, mental health professional and empath.

My love of people and the desire to share what I learned from psychology, spirituality and my own experiences led me to write blogs that could inspire, heal and empower readers.

The demon that is mental health issues, plagues every family in every corner of the world. It was my experience from watching how my mentally ill maternal grandmother and the pain that it caused my mother; that fueled my desire to learn the human mind and human behavior.

What will you learn from my site: Well! I hope that you will stick around to find out. Yet amongst money things we will discuss mental health and wellness. Love, sex, fear, marriage, divorce, child rearing, child birth, soul mates, twin flames, karmic connections, zodiac signs and several other things that I have been blessed to share enlightenment on.

  • As a mother that title holds the most weight for me. Everything that I do and desire to do is for the better good of what will benefit my children.
  • Then there is the satisfaction from genuinely wanting to help and inspire others, which lead me into the mental health and helping profession.

My mission is to help someone… anyone with their path. If I have done that, than I feel fulfilled.